Writing with Charity

  I’m not being a hard nut to crack, but constantly my mind is asking would you? If I give you the chance, would you stay? It’s not just about the chance, but would you stand my nudity? When I undress my soul, unwrap the glued pieces of my heart, open the gates to the dungeon of my scared thoughts  after I unpack the burdens of my life standing face to face with my darkest secrets, would you stay? Can I trust you to take down the gates to my castle of solitude let you shake hands and exchange glances with my wildest dreams and my unexpressed feelings. Would you stand still staring at my ancient wounds? Would you keep the key to my basement of cries safe? After I take you on a tour, showing you where I locked my insecure self, so I can wear the mask of confidence and courage. After facing the other side of my temper locked in a safe cell. After opening the bottle of my emotions take the journey down the memory lane narrate to you my struggles, choices and decisions I regret wou...

 I couldn’t b your fire or ice. I believed I was born lukewarm. Never had to pick sides before, I always opted for neutrality. All because I was scared to take chances So, when you came I failed to give you a yes or a no! Its not that I had no answers for you. But I was too scared to take chances, And I wanted you without a fight. Unfortunately I pushed you to the edge. In your words silence meant negligence. You had to free yourself from the idea of “US” Yet my silence wanted you to stay, More reason I always entertained you…            c.nitah398

I'm writing this with tears Dripping swiftly yet to you they're invisible I feel my cheeks constantly getting soaked Each moment the wind touches my skin,  i feel different types of sensations. I know you can never understand  the depth of my wounds not till you deep your fingers in it. Its funny the only way you can understand this Is by hurting me a thousand times more. I'm not in love neither is it a heartbreak  Fate hasn't fed from my own, Its yet to stretch its cold arms to me But my life is already frozen It all started with a little frostbite  Now i reside inside my own mind  with a frozen soul  I don't blame it on another being nor do i blame it on nature  But endlessly i am sheding tears  They feel so thick and heavy like blood my eyes have failed me They can not withold it any longer  Its sad no matter how i pen it down . To you these tears remain invisible!       c.nitah398

  In the lonely, days of autumn. In the bearable, nights of spring. Not forgetting the laughter of winter. In the desirable, rains of summer.  The admirable, fog on the meadow. The breezy mornings, season after season. All I want is to spend  each one of them with you. @nitah398