Dear gogo

 Dear Gogo

Its all starting to look colourful now 

No more grey colours or blurry views in my head 

Now that im sitting here 

And the house feels empty 

The echo growing louder as the clock ticks 

My soul searches for yours 

Gogo i  still cant believe you are gone 

I have cleaned all the rooms 

Done all my chores but no one is here to praise my efforts.

The house looks bigger and the furniture looks dirty 

I have been dusting up endlessly 

But still nothing looks the way it did when you were here.

They said you will watch over me 

But im here feeling lonely 

Grandpa can't tuck me in bed 

Neither can he sing  out favourite hymn 

You know he has grown to be Johnny walker 

All the rains of this season have found him in the streets 

And every time he gets home wet 

He says "if my wife was here she could be shouting" 

No one remembers how a smile looks on his face 

If you really do watch over us 

Why don't you hold his shoulder and tell him to brave up?

Why are you not helping me put the house in perfect order? 

I wonder why have you let my soul be a wanderer 

I have been starring at the stars of late 

Trying to see which one sparkles more like you 

But still i haven't found one so i don't know which one will i show my kids and tell them its you smiling over us 

I wonder are you even up there or you are here with me 

Every time i hear footsteps at night i always think its you and you are here to tuck me in bed.

My pillow is always wet coz its only at night that i get to cry myself out.

Im trying to be strong for grandpa

     c.nitah398